Nothing new here....

I wanted to check in even though there is nothing new to report. I checked in with our caseworker today. She hadn't had any new leads, but just wanted to check on us.
Tonight was haircut night at Mom and Dad's house so I got my baby fix. Got to love on some sweet babies. Even though I get a "fix", it does make me realize how much I want for Mike and I to be parents. I love the look on a babies face when they recognize their Mom or Dad. There is nothing like looking at that sweet face. I can only dream about that day, but I know when it comes, it will be everything I want it to be and more. God is taking care of the details even though we can't see it. It is hard to remember that when we are in the midst of everything, being bogged down by the details. My friend recommended a book to me by Steven Curtis Chapman's wife and I can't wait to read it. It deals with being bogged down by the deatils and not seeing the joy in every situation. I hope it will help me see with new eyes. Thanks again for all your support and prayers. Keep those leads coming. We truely appreciate everything you all do for us.

Ask and you shall recieve

We by far have the best family and friends. We ask for help finding information about international adoption and your respond in droves. We ask you to refer us to any potential birthmoms and we get a lead. We cannot tell you how excited we are that we have any responses at all. We are so blessed to have people who keep us in mind as they hear about situations. Even though some times, things do work out the way we would want them to, we are so thankful that we even hear anything. So please keep it going. We know once we have our baby all the heartaches and trial we went thru will be a memory,

Domestic or International

So the last couple of days, we have been looking at some international adoption possibilities like Russia or the Ukraine. We are not sure if we want to go this way, but want to keep our options open. I talked with our caseworker Laura to see if there was anything new. She didn't have anything new and hadn't talked to any birth moms. This greatly concerns me. I guess that's really why we are looking at some other options. We really want an infant, but do I want that to stop us from reaching our ultimate goal of parenthood? And how much do we want or can we afford to spend? All these questions are looming over our heads and nagging at us. Did we choose the right agency, did we choose correctly when we decided to go with domestic adoption. You name it, we are questioning. We know that adoption is the right path to parenthood for us, but questioning all the other decisions. If you know of anyone who has or is working with international adoption, we would love to talk with them. Also if you know of anyone who is thinking about adoption as a plan for their baby, please refer us. We have set up a new facebook page called Mike and Aprille's Adoption Profile. It has an email address where they can contact us. We appreciate all the prayers and well wishes. This has been a long road already and know we have a long road ahead.

Ready, Set, Wait!

Mike and I had our 6 month follow up visit last week. It was a little late due to the weather. This winter has caused a lot of delays on things. Jessica, our new licensing worker, came by and asked us her 100 questions or so. She was really great and is about our age. We felt really comfortable with her and know that she will be a great resource if we need her. As I sat and thought about all this, it's hard to believe that we have been in this process long enough to need our 6 month home visit recheck. Seems not long ago we were making the decision to stop infertility treatments. But wow, we made that decision last January. So we have been in the adoption mindset for over a year now. In March, we will have been working with Catholic Charities for a year. Seems so long, yet on the other hand seems so short. It seems like just a little while ago, we were filling out our mountain of paperwork. Pouring our hear and soul out to a total stranger who is the one who will decide if we will be a good "fit" to show to a potential birth mom. It was such a scary thought for a control freak like me. I have learned so much through this process. I am not in control and no matter how hard I wish or pray, I never will be. And boy am I glad for that. That is a lot of responsibility.



Mike and I decided we needed a little break and decided to head out to Punta Cana and get some R&R. What a relaxing time we got. We couldn't have asked for a nice place or weather than we got. God really knew what we needed and provided it. I was sitting on the beach just thanking God for allowing us to have the opportunity to go to such a beautiful place and also thanking him for creating it for all of us to enjoy. I know I don't take enough time to think about that.

So now we are back to reality and back to the waiting game. It's a weird feeling wondering if tomorrow will be the day you get the call the changes your life forever, to think that tonight might be the last night we spend as a family of 2. My heart skips a beat every time I get a call on my cell phone from a different number that I don't know. Please pray that Mike and I will continue to trust God and the workers he has placed us with to find the family He has created for us. Thank God that he does not give up on me even though I am so hard at "getting" the lesson he is trying to teach. As the song says "He's still workin on me, to make me what I ought to be. It took him just a week to make the moon and the stars, the sun and the earth and Jupiter, and Mars. How loving and patient he must be, cause he's still workin on me."

Wow, it's been a long time.

Well, since my last post, we have finally gotten all our approvals and have our license in hand!!!!! Yea!!!! What a success. We are finally on the waiting list and are officially expecting. However, our expecting is not going to be filled with doctors appointment, sonograms, and hearing a heartbeat. Ours is an expecting in our hearts because that is where our love for our child we do not know yet is being formed. God is knitting it together just as he will be knitting together the child he has for us together in another women's womb. We don't have a set due date and won't have room filled with all things baby. But we will be preparing our lives for our baby just as I know God is preparing our child's birth mother to make the toughest decision in her life.

To try and fill my time so I don't go crazy waiting for the phone to ring, I have started two college classes. I am going to attempt to achieve my associates in business during our wait. Although I hope I don't get to finish it before baby gets here. That would mean it's been far too long of a wait.

Thank you for all the prayers that you are saying for us. They are truly appreciated. Please keep us in mind.

A Success... I think

So Mike dropped off our picture profile to our caseworker yesterday. After a lot of hard work, rearragning pictures, and trying to find the "perfect"pictures to include. I had it printed and mailed to us. Laura emailed me this morning and said we had done a great job. It was good to hear that from someone besides family. Hopefully it will be just want a birthparent needs to see who we are.
I made sure to include our extended family to show the family backing that we had. Again, thanks for the prayers and continued support thru this time for us.

Wow, how time flies

So it has been quite awhile since I updated this blog. Things have been sooo busy in the Kuhar household. We are finally finished with our foster/adopt classes and I am so excited. I must say, we learned a lot from this class and met a lot of good people that I am sure we will lean on thru this process. So now on to getting everything finished so we can be approved. We have about two things left and we will be ready to go. We got our picture profile done and I must say it is pretty good. The only thing I would change is the front page, but I think if I only want to change one thing, that is an accomplishment. Now comes the hard part. WAITING!!!! I hate waiting. I am so bad at it. I am trying to come up with things to keep me distracted and busy. I think it is time to start baking cakes again and practicing icing them. Anything to keep busy. We appreciate all your prayers and support. Please remember if you hear of anyone that might be considering adoption, please send them our way. We would be eternally greatful.