I will put up a post in the next few days about Alli's first 4th of July and our annual family campout. It's been such a hot one!
Today I have been really emotional. A year ago today, I started my regimen of infertility medicines to begin our first invitro cycle. I remember being so excited and nervous. We have come so far from that day. Our IVF cycle ended in failure in archiving a pregnancy of my own, but out of those dark days came our miracle child Allison Grace. The whole IVF process was overwhelming but one I would gladly go thru again if it meant that was the way we got to Allison. I truly believe that we HAD to go thru the IVF process in order to get to Allison. I am still not totally sure what lesson we were supposed to learn from it. I have been sitting here today thinking about the Jason Aldean song "Laughed Until We Cried". The song has a part in it that goes something like this, "Just the other night the baby was crying so I got out of bed and rocked her awhile and I held her tight and I told her it would be alright. My mind went back to a few years ago when we tried so long we almost gave up hope and then I remember you coming in and giving me the news. Oh man we were living, going crazy in the kitchen. We danced and screamed and held each other tight. We laughed until we cried". Those lyrics really are how it was for us. It sums it up so perfectly. I couldn't have said it better myself. I may never know why Alli's birth mother choose us, but I am so thankful that she did. She is an amazing young woman, who I think of daily and will ALWAYS talk about with the utmost respect. I don't think I can ever truly convey to her how much she really means to us and what her decision means to us. It's so hard to believe where we have come in only one short year. And that my wonderful miracle baby is sleeping soundly in the other room. I am loving life and am so happy. Life if great and God is good!
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